wow nothing happens here!

I used to use this blog cause i felt bad and i needed to write down what i felt.

Reading back at the things i wrote, i kinda feel bad for my past self.

I'm not ashamed of the things i wrote, cause i was feeling bad at the time.

But i decided to put it all behind me.

Most of the posts i made on this blog are gone now.

Not that anyone read them...

Not that anyone will ever read this...

If there is someone out there reading this:

Hi! Welcome! I hope we can be friends!

This blog will probably go back to not being used till i find something to do with it.

Until then, il be active on other places on the Internet!

my dream... or my future?

WARNING:

This is both fiction and non-fiction

Fiction: it really happened in a dream of me

Non-fiction: well… it was a dream

SO BEWARE! This isn’t reality (yet)

I don’t really know how the dream started… but I would never forget what I dreamed of in the middle…

My memories of it start at a moment when I’m all alone at home… my future home? I don’t know… So I’m lonely and I watch in my garden. I see a little fox… I look at it and it looks at me. It slowly comes closer and closer. Once the fox gets used to me, it never left my garden so I decided to build a little house. He wasn’t officially my fox so I knew it could leave any time he wanted to. And one day… it did… Later I’m under attack of something I can’t remember (and I don’t remember why I’m under attack of it either). I yell the foxes name I gave him and there he was. I could see his shadow. The shadow vanishes after a few seconds but than it came back and the fox rescued me. From that moment on, I had my first ‘son’. Later I was out with some friends and their boy/girlfriends. They where all buzzy  kissing and hugging and I was standing there. I looked at the sky and I saw the first star appear. I was so happy. I was bragging to everyone but they just kept on being buzzy with themselves. Suddenly a little cloud appeared in front of me. I looked at it as it went up and took one of the stars down to earth and gave it to me. Everybody looked at it as we walked home. I hugged it and it started to glow. A human baby came out of it. My second ‘son’.

I don’t really remember what happened after that but I know we lived together in our little house. And we were happy. I was a father of 2 without a mother.

Does this have a meaning?

If it does I think its about that I shouldn’t care that I don’t have a girlfriend. Cause I got friends. And I will be happy as I am.

Chibi95

wings

im sure im not the only one who dreams about having wings
wings like an angel
wings like a dragon


being able to fly
fly in the air
feeling the freedom


being able to reach places you've never been before
other countries
places to be alone


being able to shrink your wings
hide them
looking like a normal creature


those are just dream
almost impossible to come true
but i wish
wish for wings

hello everybody

im a Dutch guy
but i blog in English

welcome to my blog
i will try to update it as much as i can

this blog is about what i see
                          what i live
                          what i feel

i love to draw
my drawings and photoshops can be found on http://chibi95.deviantart.com

more will come later.

great hugs from this new blogger